Preface: After the serious, depressing content of yesterday’s post, I thought that I might post something happy for a change. Here’s something I whipped up in church last week. This one is narrated by me.
Focusing on Me
By Josh Brown
Human Introspection, too much focusing on me.
Self-important, too obsessed, so terrible to be.
Let me turn to you, O Lord, forget myself within,
Lose gall and pride and selfishness, absolve me of my sin.
“You are big, and I am small,” I mutter in my mind,
And yet the saying is reversed, I blasphemously find.
Unconsciously, I make myself, much bigger than my God,
Heinously, Horrifically, my head is full of sod.
That brain You made, that soul You saved, rebelling every day,
To be like You is what I crave, but this is not the way;
Faultlessness unreachable, perfect will I never be,
If every day I always am, just focusing on me.
Knowledge, power, influence, is what we humans “need,”
But without You, they’re meaningless, just a garden full of weeds.
No actions of my earthly frame, will ever, ever be,
Worth anything in Your eyes, if they’re done only for me.
Perfection is what I search for, to be totally like You,
But You tell me “No, no, no, son, that’s what Satan wanted, too.”
I am not a perfect man, nor will I ever be,
So why on earth am I, always focusing on me?
Stubbornness envelops me, I want to be the best,
But under my own power, I will fail just like the rest.
Only in and with You, Lord, could I ever hope ,
To have a single chance at worthiness, to be anything but a joke.
Help me look to You, Lord, to take the focus off of me.
To not blame or hate myself, for failing at what cannot be.
I am what I am and that’s all I am, and all I’ll ever be,
So bring my focus back to You, Lord, forever off of me.
